screwedthinking

Okay so, here’s the thing… I enjoy tagging with you. I love you as a person, I love that you’re my castmate, I love that we’re in the same game. But the thing is, you’re not playing with me. Not really. I understand that your time is limited, and I don’t mind getting slow tags. I’m a slow player myself. But something has to change. I’m at the point where I’m leery of starting new things with you because I know you’ll maybe tag them once and then stop, and it’s affecting my playing in general because of how close Kotetsu and Barnaby are. Plus, it’s ooc of Barnaby to not do things with Kotetsu, and I can’t handwave everything because that’s affecting my playing too. I really prefer to play things out as much as possible, though I know that’s not always practical, but really… if you don’t tag the things you say you really want to do, why should I even bother trying to do them with you? I still want to. I want to do all the things with you. But this cycle is frustrating, disheartening, and, though you’re not the only reason I’m feeling this way, making it hard to play period.

I know you said that you’re afraid of letting me down by giving me bad tags. To be honest, I’d rather receive the crappiest tags in the world than none at all, and you give *good* tags. Don’t sell yourself short. And it’s kind of painful to see you giving them freely to everyone else and seeming to ignore me/my tags.

I’m not sure what I can say about fixing it, but I like this game. I like you. I’d like to be able to actually play out some of Barnaby and Kotetsu’s relationship building rather than just handwaving it; there’s no way I’ll be able to play out any kind of deeper relationship without, well, playing it out. I just can’t do that; it’s not fun, and I personally don’t think it’s fair.

Please, just… think about it. I apped in to play with you. And at this time… I’m not.